Some Regrets Start with Good Byes


By: Dr. AnumPari

It’s important to me, you always knew that, Ely!I have to go,I can’t stay here and I can’t commit as my family is not agreed with me to do so. I never said a word that depicts that we’re together like a couple. I never gave you a false hope but yes I always wanted to be together. Please, Ely! Only You understands me here so well in the whole world even more than my family in fact, anyone else in the world. You know it well that I can’t ask for this from my Baba! I’m always afraid to! I have never argued with him for anything.I always did a compromise in front of him and I will always do so. Please say goodbye at a happy note.As for me, that was the best and the most precious time which I had passed with you. Please Ely! You always knew me.
Awww! You’re absolutely right! You never said that we’re together ever and off course I always knew your reservations of grabbing the best opportunity at the end but you don’t know one thing Alex, I always knew that you were using me just to pass your time in a best way here . Just as per your name, you were always a winner but a coward inside. You always needed a shoulder to cry on and a soft heart to make you feel up only when you want ! You were always waiting for the prettiest and the youngest match for you so that you can show the world that you have the pre-eminent of all. Don’t blame your baba and family.It’s always you , who wanted to keep everything perfect without considering anyone’s feelings. You compromised because he always brought best for you and yes this time too you are doing this because you’re fine with it.You are not asking your father just because you don’t want to do so in reality.So, just don’t put it on others at all. Ahhhhh! I knew it ! Yes, I might know it so well always that you will do the same one day and will keep yourself out of blame as you’re doing right now but still I helped you, still i remained there for you not because the persons like me are the best emotional fools but because we, the givers, still want to trust the world, still want to love , still believe in brightening up other’s life even after realizing all grey shades of other person’s personality. Remember the day, You used to clear that You’re not selfish and you don’t take favors but You do, Alex. You never gave equality in relation. Ahhhh! in fact, I don’t know! should I call it a relation? Someone truly said that the name always affects. Yes , I’m Elyna,born to shine and You are Alexander, The Warrior, by birth. So, You won today too! Go and Leave here everything forever because You’re right,I knew it!
For me , It was never about to stop you, Alex! It was always about being together in all journeys and You know that too that we could be the best amalgam of Spark ever but You never tried wholeheartedly so now don’t give excuses.And of course, Nobody can stop a person who has already gone.
Ahhhhh! Alex ! Don’t repeat this with anyone again . It’s Painful!
Well! You’re a Great Guy ! Stay Blessed!
“…..Years Later…..”
You were always right Ely!
I wish I could listen my heart. I’m with everyone but Yes ! I’m alone forever.(Thoughts of Alex)

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